Grad School Confidential

“Like an Empty Shell”: Living with Depression in Grad School

Episode Summary

Graduate students are more likely than most people to experience depression — a disorder that can have devastating effects on our thoughts and behaviour. In this episode, a recent PhD student explains what depression felt like, and how she reached out for help. Note: Contains discussions of suicidal thoughts and other troubling subjects.

Episode Notes

Depression is more than just a feeling: it’s a mood disorder that can have devastating effects on our thoughts and behaviour. And it can be hard to detect in a high-pressure environment like grad school.

In this episode, we speak with a grad student who experienced depression during her PhD program. She explains the onset of the condition, what it felt like, and how she reached out for help.

Please note: This episode contains discussions of suicidal thoughts and other troubling subjects. If you or someone you know is struggling with suicidal thoughts, please reach out to one of the crisis lines listed on our Resources page.

Music credits

Licensed from soundstripe.com: “Haunted” by Emorie; "Shaken and Stirred" by Dreamland (theme song); “Haunted” by Stephen Keech; “Arcadia” by Cody Martin; “Ripley” by Falls; “Three Meters” by Stephen Keech; “The Changing Tides” by Brent Wood; “1947” by Stephen Keech; “Chasing the Northern Lights” by Sounds Like Sander.

Grad School Confidential is a production of Counselling & Clinical Services at the University of Alberta.